Now for the Post…oh no

It seems as if I’m ahem sorta outta psychiatry…if you do not know the back story my “friend” C who used to take me places called my very own therapist who used to pretend to be my best friend and told her God knows what about me.  2 Cop Cars showed up with lites flashing along with an appearance challenged old man with a clipboard.  C and I had had a phone argument and now my very own BFF therapist was calling COPS on me.  I had not threatened to hurt him or myself or even my “neighbor” who has moved at last, but, there they were.  I sent them away w/o letting them in, then angrily called my therapist demanding to know what went on after squeeeeezing the info outta C that he did call my therapist.  She defended herself in phone messages and then in PERSON last December saying she thought she did what was right.    She would not meet me at a middle ground no matter how many chances I gave her because she was like, my BFF therapist, right?  Naw.

So I fired her.  Then my shrink wanted to be next and transfer me back to my old office near me.  Fine.  She said she’d contact her boss and it would be done but she sounded vague like she might only do it so I made another appointment with her which I kept by the way since I was never transferred or called.  I had my second 7 minute appointment with her since being in the same room with me is not good to my well my ex-shrink.  So now for “treatment” besides the pills, I have had TWO 7 minute appointments with Dr. Bitch and my pills renewed since last December.  I saw Dr. Thang the first of the month.  Memorial Day was yesterday.  No call, nothing.  Ms. thang, the shrink, told me to NOT make another appointment with her since the transfer WOULD BE DONE this time.  I suggested that she talk to her boss in person instead of emailing him since he does not read his emails.

Later that day, after a perp filled long commute back “home” (yes I spent over 2 hours on pub transportation and walking and 7 bucks on goodies plus 5 for the bus/train for a 7 minute appointment) I called the office again and actually got a person.  This young woman checked and said that indeed Dr. Thang had EMAILED her boss again. I have no “care”, which is OK by me except I’m addicted to the pills I started taking in 2011 after the perps made my life hell with demonic attacks.

So I could drink, do pot, etc to try and taper the pills when the prescription runs out.  Free of psychiatry again.  Woo Hoo.  I thought Julie Greene was exaggerating when she spoke of her poor treatment by “mental health professionals”.  Not really.  Guess I’ve had pretty good ones up to this point…some dogs, but not as bad as what I’ve been going thru.  Also they weighted the scale since I weighed 5 pounds more there than I did at home.  I spent more time getting weighed and blood pressure than being seen by the Doktor.

V2k is threatening me not to post this.

P.S.  C. and I were “back together” for awhile after that and he blamed ME for my therapist doing that saying she probably wanted to get rid of me anyway and then proceeded to tell my other “friend” about it.  BFF therapist seemed a little cooler at the new office and sat behind a big desk and wore huge glasses and didn’t compliment me when I tried to dress up for sessions. Still, she had booked me 2 sessions in advance before C. called her.

PPS My landlady tried to call there to get me in trouble for gettin angry with a perp bum but they gave her the bum rush, telling her I was “being transferred”.  Sure.

PPPS  My BFF “therapist” who always laughed with me like I was funnier than TV has changed her number.  I never tried to call her to get back together.  A little overkill?  Maybe the reptoids are giving her a big promotion for hurting me but I kept hearing patients being given reminder calls to see her as I waited for my 7 minute appointment with the Thang, so I think she is still a rank and file therapist.

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Ninety, or, welcome to the box!

I just did my food stamp re cert last month and got a surprise!  I got a raise!  A few years ago, food stamps were cut a lot and never restored.  I got 50 bucks cut off mine.  My amount has remained pretty much steady at the lower rate in the years since then.  This year, however, I got a 21 dollar raise, that coincidentally, puts me above the 90 dollar level for a month.  I would be happy, but, there’s a new law that Trump wants to go into effect for food stamp recipients.  If you get over 90 food stamps a month you will get HALF (or so they say) the value of your stamps on your card in a FOOD BOX.  Trump made it sound like it would be like a “Blue Apron” affair, with gourmet fixings for gourmet meals.  Not really.

Blue Apron gives you exact amounts for each ingredient in a gourmet recipe and provides you with two portions each of dinner for about 20 bucks a person.  It is a luxury item.  Buying ingredients yourself is cheaper but there is waste and no color photo cards to use for instructions.  There are take home meal services as well, but those are also luxury items for people with special yuppie diets like vegan, raw, low gluten, etc….

No, the BOX will contain COMMODITIES.  These food items are produced by private industry and sold to governments that use tax dollars to get them.  They are lower quality goods and are sometimes found at food banks/mental health inpatient places/ and low income apartment buildings sometimes give them out.  The selection is basic pantry goods.  It’s the noodles, oatmeal, canned vegetables, canned fruit and peanut butter routine.  It’s very depressing to eat that way so few do it.  There is also meat in a can that tastes…interesting.

I first ran into commodities at the place I stayed at in 1985-1986.  They had huge cans of peanut butter with a black and white label saying USDA:  donated by the American People.  They also had dried milk that was impossible to mix and, back then, government cheese, which tastes odd, but is good in cooking.

I have also gotten many commodities at food banks such as canned fruit, vegetables, dried fruit and peanut butter and stuff like rice and noodles and spaghetti.  This would be no way to live long term.

There are some people who abuse food stamps by buying only soda and candy and chips with them, but most people buy food items with only some junk food.  If I get the box, which seems likely, since I got that “raise”, I will have to eat cheaply made food I hate and only get half my money in food stamps.  So, instead of 70 dollars in stamps I’d get 45 and a bunch of crap I hate.  The people at the human services office where I go don’t like me so I doubt I’d get a raise unless the BOX was in the works.

I can pretty much guarantee that the boxes will be coming out.  Human services just lowered my stamps a few months before that since I got 17 extra dollars a month on my check.  Food stamps wrote right away and told me they were lowering my amount by 7 dollars.  Also, I have noticed the slower growth in my checks in recent years.  For a few years, they were virtually flat, and then I got the food stamp cut.

There are too many people on benefits since the government stopped Welfare in the 1990s.  The amount of people on benefits rose by the amount of people dropped from the Welfare, or AFDC, rolls.  I guess everyone became disabled.  Corporations are not paying people well, and rent is soaring so even working people get food stamps.

For me to live in a typical apartment, I would have to make about 20 bucks an hour.  The minimum wage is about 10 dollars an hour here.  The 20 dollars would be based on a 40 hour work week which no one gives anymore.  How do people survive?  Food stamps only cover about a week of food or 2 weeks if you eat beans or other cheap stuff.  How do people eat?  Why do so many eat out???

P.S.  I was approved for my new amount in May and found out I got NOTHING this month at the grocery store checkout line, of course!  Do you think Human Services reads this blog?  My account still says zero and it’s the 16th.

Heartless Bitch

The man who takes me to appointments, etc…is not talking to me AGAIN.

Used to be, I went to my own appointments and used the city bus system to travel all over town.  Then I was threatened several times on various errands.  Two I can remember are a large 20 or so group of high schoolers threatening me as I left the store with bags to go to the bus.  I did not turn around or look at them.  Later, I was on the way to another store, and a bunch of adults started in on me the whole trip across town.  The conversation had racial overtones and ended around the time I got off the bus with “just harassing her isn’t enough, we need to get physical.”

This man had been helping out my “friend” for years and then he started to pick me up for my appointments as well.  At first he was so kind, not just taking me to appointments but paying for things as well.   He even paid for things I could never afford on my own.  I came to know that there was a “catch”.  He wanted sex.  I never gave him any.  Now, I’m less attractive than when he used to come pick me up and he started taking things out on me after Trump won in 2016, like it was my fault.

We have been on and off ever since. It culminated last Fall when I had a fallout with my “friend” and I suspected he had something to do with it,  After a month or so, I wasn’t talking to him, either.  Then my therapist betrayed me.  I think she got a promotion for it since she can’t be found at her old office.  I think this man, C., has been taking orders from the perps for years now.  I still remember the wild signalling he did when we went thru a podunk town because he was so scared to be seen with me.  You know, the nose scraping and forehead swiping…the Stasi stuff.

I have not been talking to my “friend” recently since she has been a little weird since she had a month’s hospital stay.  I went to her house in January and she kept getting me up all night asking if I would bathe her cats even though I told her I was getting sick and maybe not up to it.  She woke me at 1am and told me if I did not bathe her cats I could go home in winter getting sick.  She repeated her performance in the early morning.  Later, her housekeeper at the time was trying to wash her cats and had no idea what he was doing at about 9am so I did wash the cats even though they did not need it.  Then she gave away her cats, the main reason I liked to visit her since she is not much of a friend anymore.  You can’t have a conversation with her and she’s a compulsive TV addict staying up all night to watch TV and sleeping around all day when things need to get done.

After the hospital, she came with laundry to my house two times  but without her soap (had to use mine) and did it herself which meant running the clothes through 3 times at least each load.  The last time she came I told her to bring dinner and then she could wash.  She “forgot” her soap again and brought this bizarre spinach pizza to which I added some pepperoni and some sausage.  I cooked the pizza and she scraped off the meat.  Does she think I would poison her?  If so, the juices from the meat already cooked into the pizza.  Then, she did not talk to me as she did her laundry.  After that I did not want much to do with her and she stopped calling me except to “invite” me to free things like church dinners and “free” meetings with free food.  I’m poor but I hate that shit, plus, I somehow “run into” some of those people I tried to be friends with ten years ago.

Somehow, I fell back in with C. after busing it with my landlady a couple of months.  He started to pick me up and to take me to appointments/stores again.  He seemed OK.  He was buying lunch again for me and even slipped me a bit of cash here and there.  We disagree on many things but had no fights.  He even took me on an out of town excursion one day for a few hours.  He never goes too far, always within an hour of “home”.  I thought things were smooth with him again even though it was not optimal.  I preferred to hang out with my friend but something broke last Fall and it has never been fixed and this ain’t her first Rodeo with me.  Last time she “came back” to be friends with me was supposed to be the LAST CHANCE and even then I had sworn to have nothing to do with her since she had avoided me for a year.  She drove to my house against my permission and we sort of took it from there.  But that’s another story.

Lately, my friend has been calling me to take her out for her birthday but I don’t want to.  I spent Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year’s, Passover, Easter and every weekend alone except for one since last October and she can’t expect me to pony up the big bucks for dinner.  I told her I did not owe her that.  Plus, when she takes me out she does not use her own money but C’s!!!!  She is not broke.  She has the money and a newish SUV!!!  I wish he would stop getting between us.  Last Fall I begged C. to stay away from us and he refused.  I think he’s getting his kicks playing us off against one another.  It’s his entertainment to destroy us since he is retired and pretty much alone and distant from his wife who holds the purse strings or else he would be gone.  She and her family have the big bucks and he likes the lifestyle.

He called me last Monday and started acting really suspicious.  He asked me what I was doing and I told him nothing but hanging out, helping my landlady clean an empty apt, and Bible Study.  He said “what ELSE are you doing?” Which sounded odd.  He continued to act like I was hiding something from him and then we said goodbye.  I called him on Thursday about something and he started picking a FIGHT with me about of all things Alex Jones!!!!!  He started to carry on about Newtown which happened almost 5 years ago and how Jones was saying it was a false flag.  This is nothing new to the conspiracy community.  He said, “do YOU think it’s a false flag?” and I said maybe.  Then he sort of steered the conversation around (bait and switch) and started saying “don’t you CARE ABOUT THE KIDS?”  Sorry Charlie, I did not know the KIDS so I don’t care at this point.  I was shocked and saddened when I heard about it but thought the shooter was a ti.  He started singing the “DON’T YOU CARE ABOUT THE KIDS?” shit and then I hung up on him.  I thought this shooter had taken out high school kids and frankly thought they were former harassers of his. Turns it was elementary kids.

Then, asshole calls me about an appointment this week and acts like nothing happened (eg. he can treat me any old way and act like nothing happened) and I brought up the argument again and he started with the song about the KIDS which is sounding funnier and more suspicious by the second, like, do I care about kids in general, do I ABUSE kids???  Like he was perping me and baiting me on this.  He ended the call with a loud FUCK YOU and proceeded to instantly call my “friend” to tell he he had “dropped” me.  He is a bitch and drama queen and I wish he would sod off, the perp ass.  He tore me and my friend apart last Fall somehow and I tried even blocking my phone against him but the phone co said it could not block that call.  I begged him to leave me and my friend alone and he said ‘he could not do that”.  Why?  Are your perp buddies paying you?  Did they tell you to pick a fight with me to “drop” me and make my life hell again?  Money, money, money.  Charlie is a HO

No I won’t take Her Highness to dinner when she milks Charlie for the cash to take me.  I use the little I get in my checks for her to order the most expensive thing on the menu then she turns and rends me by taking HIS money to take me out on my birthday.  I have done so much for her.  Pearls before swine.

I feel they are both playing me for a sucker.  I’m such a heartless BITCH…I DON’T CARE ABOUT THE KIDS…buwahahahahah.

Techno Crime Fighters Forum

Last week, I didn’t watch the show.  I’m sort of losing interest since Paul Marko died of a mysterious?! illness.  I thought the affidavits would be available now.  They might be, but I didn’t listen to the show.  I decided to read the posted comments to see generally what happened, but, it looks like one of my PERPS has followed me there.  Someone who posted lots of comments.  The he/she made a totally offhand comment before commenting on gangstalking that applied to MY LIFE.  I think this troll wanted an angry response from it.  Even responding here sort of makes it dangerous but I don’t hide my identity.  There was also another gasbag who left a million comments all by themselves.  They always come off looking like agents.  Seeing that comment by the first mentioned troll makes me feel unsafe at the forum.  I can’t imagine what this little troll posted during the live chat.  I checked his channel.  Empty bag but one vid that played some garbage like, “is she really smart or is she just a slut that wants to be b*nged against the wall?”  Felt perped by that, too.  There are also other “people” that show up there that seem perpy too and their comments make no sense. Maybe I should get up early to see if I get perped in live chat, or,just forget about the show.

The Latest Thing

The latest thing these paid and petted thugs are doing is goosestepping and marching around me.  Jew baiting?  This is more like a tweet than a post.

Also, I visited my “sister’s” Facebook last fall and she added the RABBI as a Facebook “friend”!  Someone snooping on my blog?  You ARE A BITCH NAOMI!!!!!!

About the goosestepping…I think the lil cretins are looking in my window and saw the Matzoh on the fridge…now I’m the “Jewish ti”.  The local blacks know I’m Jewish.  I got called “Christ Killer” at our local library by a bunch of old black woman LIBRARIANS.  These are educated women…I guess……

The Bad Friend

These are some of the things I have done for my “friend” I have “destroyed.

Cooking, Cleaning, Getting her ready for housing inspection, gassing and window cleaning her car, vacuuming her car and wiping it out, decluttering her various apartments including a file purge in 2013 that generated a foot of paper, going to ER’s, urgent cares, hospitals and mental hospitals, cutting her toenails, bathing and boarding her cats, getting poop off the butt of her longhair, cooking meals for her on the holidays, doing all her laundry for a number of years, lugging her former cats to the vet with her, going with her for “moral support” to her father’s house to get him to do what she wants, listening to endless bitter rants about men rejecting her (men that did not go on even one date with her), shampooing her rug on my hands and knees with a small steam cleaner, schlepping to the bank on Saturday mornings so she can gorge herself on free donuts, looking up shit on Google for her even though she took years of computer classes, giving her cats their medicine, the Great Clothing Purge of getting rid of shit she had since High School, hunting her down to visit her at a halfway house after not hearing from her in forever, Sunday Brunch at my house almost every week, “playing” games on the computer with her which involved her always playing and me never playing, turning up the heat to 74 and paying the bill when she stayed over, paying her long distance bills she “forgot” to tell me about from using my phone, sitting with her during an anxiety attack and urging her to take a pill and sitting with her until it began to work, rushing to the store to get Gas-X when she thought she was having a “heart attack”, bleaching out her litter boxes after one of her cats had giardia instead of her buying new ones, etc…etc…etc…..the poop stuck to the bottom like glue……..I ruined her life.

The Liar

And now to the main post….

I had a conversation with the man who ruined my friend’s life and now is conspiring with her father to get a guardian for her.  He did his dirty work and won’t FUCKING GO AWAY.  I think he has been recruited to perp full time.  My friend’s father, an emotionally abusive man who probably screwed up my friend, is now FRIENDS with C.  C. used to hate this guy and now they are “friends” and oh…no big surprise…I’m the bad guy.

Since he has not had the “decency” to go away after fucking things up, I continued to talk to him since I could not block his number from my phone and I was having trouble getting around without “rides” from him.  He kept harping on how “bad off” my “friend” was but HE did it.  I’m convinced he dropped acid or PCP or something in her drink.  Otherwise he’d talk about sports or endlessly pump his liberal garbage at me.

The last time I talked to him on the phone, he ACCUSED ME of screwing up my sometimes friend!!!!!  She was screwed up major time when I met her back in 1989!!!!!  I helped her with everything in her life since then except when she wasn’t “talking” to me and also recently after her fake nervous breakdown/hospitalization/weirdness.  Even I can’t stand her now.  All the things I did for her…I could write a book.  Maybe I will.  Turns out her nasty FATHER accuses me of screwing up his daughter who has always been different anyway and now C. BELIEVES him!  Welcome aboooard, C. says Daddy.

 

First things First

Just when things could not get any worse…

First off, the man who provided a video forum for ti’s for a year is dead.  Just like that. Paul Marko died Feb. 6, 2018.  No information is provided as to what he died of as yet.  He was brave to host a ti forum even though he was not a ti.  He had recently taken a trip to the US (from South America where he lived) to help his wife’s parents.  He was disgusted at our social/political situation saying he never saw people so divided in his life and America was a changed place.  He was probably in his early 60s, that’s it.  He ran Pineconeutopia website and You Tube site and also hosted the Techno Crime Fighters Forum for awhile before handing it over to Ramola D.  He studied all kinds of topics on his forum but got energized to help targeted individuals after hearing from them.  He did not back down after a few weeks like so many people who “help” ti’s and probably got targeted himself.

I’ll come back later with my main post.  Many people will miss Dr. Paul Marko.

 

 

 

New Year Blues

It is the afternoon of Dec. 31, 2017.  Soon yet another year will come.  How was your year?  Mine sucked again.  After all the excitement over the new President, my gs and V2k only got worse.

I have enjoyed? watching the Forum with (now) Ramola D., but she has fewer viewers and less traffic but she is growing slowly.  Having non-ti’s involved (Paul and Mindy) seemed to make the show more “legit” somehow to outsiders who could be convinced.  I like the show but the reason for having to watch it is ABOMINATION. How can we, in the land of the “free” be worse off than slaves?

The Construction is over for now on my street but a new phone tower is up and running literally in the front yard.  My cat checked out at the vet, thank God.  She is not that young anymore.  It’s very cold now after a very long warm Fall.

I was alone for Thanksgiving and Christmas and now New Year.  My “friend’s” situation has improved.  She has been discharged from the hospital and is now home and has her car.  She was acting like she didn’t want her cats back.

The shit with my therapist hurt the most.  I won’t trust a therapist again.  I thought we were “close”.  We laughed, we joked, I shared pics of my cat with her.  I even bought a tiny t shirt to put on the cat to show her.  The cat hated it.  I went through all kinds of shit with her since early 2015 and thought she would be there for me.  Now I have no one to tell my stuff to.  Friends come and go but I didn’t think a therapist would shank me like that.  She really helped me in late 2015 when I was literally falling apart, and then again in 2016.  This year it seems we were sort of just hanging in there.

My “sister” will be 50 this coming year and I still have not seen her since 2005.  13 years.  Sick of using FB to check up on her.  She is blessed to even be 50.  She has had cancer and heart disease already.

I am still sitting under the shadow of that false accusation.

I wish there was better news to tell.