Now for the Post…oh no

It seems as if I’m ahem sorta outta psychiatry…if you do not know the back story my “friend” C who used to take me places called my very own therapist who used to pretend to be my best friend and told her God knows what about me.  2 Cop Cars showed up with lites flashing along with an appearance challenged old man with a clipboard.  C and I had had a phone argument and now my very own BFF therapist was calling COPS on me.  I had not threatened to hurt him or myself or even my “neighbor” who has moved at last, but, there they were.  I sent them away w/o letting them in, then angrily called my therapist demanding to know what went on after squeeeeezing the info outta C that he did call my therapist.  She defended herself in phone messages and then in PERSON last December saying she thought she did what was right.    She would not meet me at a middle ground no matter how many chances I gave her because she was like, my BFF therapist, right?  Naw.

So I fired her.  Then my shrink wanted to be next and transfer me back to my old office near me.  Fine.  She said she’d contact her boss and it would be done but she sounded vague like she might only do it so I made another appointment with her which I kept by the way since I was never transferred or called.  I had my second 7 minute appointment with her since being in the same room with me is not good to my well my ex-shrink.  So now for “treatment” besides the pills, I have had TWO 7 minute appointments with Dr. Bitch and my pills renewed since last December.  I saw Dr. Thang the first of the month.  Memorial Day was yesterday.  No call, nothing.  Ms. thang, the shrink, told me to NOT make another appointment with her since the transfer WOULD BE DONE this time.  I suggested that she talk to her boss in person instead of emailing him since he does not read his emails.

Later that day, after a perp filled long commute back “home” (yes I spent over 2 hours on pub transportation and walking and 7 bucks on goodies plus 5 for the bus/train for a 7 minute appointment) I called the office again and actually got a person.  This young woman checked and said that indeed Dr. Thang had EMAILED her boss again. I have no “care”, which is OK by me except I’m addicted to the pills I started taking in 2011 after the perps made my life hell with demonic attacks.

So I could drink, do pot, etc to try and taper the pills when the prescription runs out.  Free of psychiatry again.  Woo Hoo.  I thought Julie Greene was exaggerating when she spoke of her poor treatment by “mental health professionals”.  Not really.  Guess I’ve had pretty good ones up to this point…some dogs, but not as bad as what I’ve been going thru.  Also they weighted the scale since I weighed 5 pounds more there than I did at home.  I spent more time getting weighed and blood pressure than being seen by the Doktor.

V2k is threatening me not to post this.

P.S.  C. and I were “back together” for awhile after that and he blamed ME for my therapist doing that saying she probably wanted to get rid of me anyway and then proceeded to tell my other “friend” about it.  BFF therapist seemed a little cooler at the new office and sat behind a big desk and wore huge glasses and didn’t compliment me when I tried to dress up for sessions. Still, she had booked me 2 sessions in advance before C. called her.

PPS My landlady tried to call there to get me in trouble for gettin angry with a perp bum but they gave her the bum rush, telling her I was “being transferred”.  Sure.

PPPS  My BFF “therapist” who always laughed with me like I was funnier than TV has changed her number.  I never tried to call her to get back together.  A little overkill?  Maybe the reptoids are giving her a big promotion for hurting me but I kept hearing patients being given reminder calls to see her as I waited for my 7 minute appointment with the Thang, so I think she is still a rank and file therapist.

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Ninety, or, welcome to the box!

I just did my food stamp re cert last month and got a surprise!  I got a raise!  A few years ago, food stamps were cut a lot and never restored.  I got 50 bucks cut off mine.  My amount has remained pretty much steady at the lower rate in the years since then.  This year, however, I got a 21 dollar raise, that coincidentally, puts me above the 90 dollar level for a month.  I would be happy, but, there’s a new law that Trump wants to go into effect for food stamp recipients.  If you get over 90 food stamps a month you will get HALF (or so they say) the value of your stamps on your card in a FOOD BOX.  Trump made it sound like it would be like a “Blue Apron” affair, with gourmet fixings for gourmet meals.  Not really.

Blue Apron gives you exact amounts for each ingredient in a gourmet recipe and provides you with two portions each of dinner for about 20 bucks a person.  It is a luxury item.  Buying ingredients yourself is cheaper but there is waste and no color photo cards to use for instructions.  There are take home meal services as well, but those are also luxury items for people with special yuppie diets like vegan, raw, low gluten, etc….

No, the BOX will contain COMMODITIES.  These food items are produced by private industry and sold to governments that use tax dollars to get them.  They are lower quality goods and are sometimes found at food banks/mental health inpatient places/ and low income apartment buildings sometimes give them out.  The selection is basic pantry goods.  It’s the noodles, oatmeal, canned vegetables, canned fruit and peanut butter routine.  It’s very depressing to eat that way so few do it.  There is also meat in a can that tastes…interesting.

I first ran into commodities at the place I stayed at in 1985-1986.  They had huge cans of peanut butter with a black and white label saying USDA:  donated by the American People.  They also had dried milk that was impossible to mix and, back then, government cheese, which tastes odd, but is good in cooking.

I have also gotten many commodities at food banks such as canned fruit, vegetables, dried fruit and peanut butter and stuff like rice and noodles and spaghetti.  This would be no way to live long term.

There are some people who abuse food stamps by buying only soda and candy and chips with them, but most people buy food items with only some junk food.  If I get the box, which seems likely, since I got that “raise”, I will have to eat cheaply made food I hate and only get half my money in food stamps.  So, instead of 70 dollars in stamps I’d get 45 and a bunch of crap I hate.  The people at the human services office where I go don’t like me so I doubt I’d get a raise unless the BOX was in the works.

I can pretty much guarantee that the boxes will be coming out.  Human services just lowered my stamps a few months before that since I got 17 extra dollars a month on my check.  Food stamps wrote right away and told me they were lowering my amount by 7 dollars.  Also, I have noticed the slower growth in my checks in recent years.  For a few years, they were virtually flat, and then I got the food stamp cut.

There are too many people on benefits since the government stopped Welfare in the 1990s.  The amount of people on benefits rose by the amount of people dropped from the Welfare, or AFDC, rolls.  I guess everyone became disabled.  Corporations are not paying people well, and rent is soaring so even working people get food stamps.

For me to live in a typical apartment, I would have to make about 20 bucks an hour.  The minimum wage is about 10 dollars an hour here.  The 20 dollars would be based on a 40 hour work week which no one gives anymore.  How do people survive?  Food stamps only cover about a week of food or 2 weeks if you eat beans or other cheap stuff.  How do people eat?  Why do so many eat out???

P.S.  I was approved for my new amount in May and found out I got NOTHING this month at the grocery store checkout line, of course!  Do you think Human Services reads this blog?  My account still says zero and it’s the 16th.