Hope has faded since the wrinkles have appeared and my
Faith in the future has been lost by hearing that
“gangstalking is for life”
Which means I have no life. No life at all.
Every day is an ordeal to get through.
Mornings are the worst knowing
I will have to live all over again today in my nightmare world.
Hope has faded in God Who I had hoped would save me out of
All this. I still wonder if I’m saved at all after hearing about
My Jewish childhood did not warn me of this being chosen for Heaven.
We lived life in the here and now and didn’t think of the afterlife.
That came after Christianity.
Afraid to live, afraid to die.
This was not the future my parents drummed into me.