Corset, Updated…

Just wanted to update.  I have had my corset for almost 4 months.  It is almost closed.  Closed it will cinch me slightly larger than it is supposed to since it has stretched 1/2″ on each side.  The most I cinch down is about 4 to 4 1/2 inches.  Or less.  My natural  waist is maybe down 1 1/2 inches.  I still have the “gut” after I take it off.  I have no one to tell me if my stomach appears smaller when I’m w/o the corset.  It pushes the fat up and down so you get an epic bust and a huge pooch below.  It actually makes my pants fit better because, well gravity has flattened my derriere.

This has not been the miracle I thought it would be.  It can reduce appetite at times, but, when you are really hungry, you will eat.  I’ve had hunger pangs in the corset…very bad.  Nothing stops hunger pangs.  I don’t cinch for very long a day but I do it every day.  Due to health problems, I can’t wear it for long each day.  If I could, I would wear a corset all day and only take it off to sleep.  No magic here.


This was the reason I went on benefits…I was a precariat, or a desperate economically insecure person underemployed in an unfair job market.  I had been fired 30 times or more by age 33.  I only had one “real” job with benefits in my life and it lasted less than 2 years!.  If you do not know someone who can get you hired, or come from a rich family, or are connected to perps, you will work at nothing jobs forever.  I managed to scrape by in my 20s but you can’t go w/o health insurance forever.  My health was already worsening in my early 30s.

The reason America was great years ago was the “great American job” that put many people in the middle class and also inexpensive schooling.  When I graduated from college the biggest American employer was Manpower, a temp agency, what a joke!

Precariat….combination of two words first coined in the Reagan 1980s combining the words precarious and proletariat.

Ti’s Lament

From Jeremiah 20.

Jeremiah 20 Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)

20 Now Pashur the son of Immer the priest, who was also chief governor in the house of the Lord, heard that Jeremiah prophesied these things. Then Pashur smote Jeremiah the prophet, and put him in the stocks that were in the high gate of Benjamin, which was by the house of the Lord. And it came to pass on the morrow, that Pashur brought forth Jeremiah out of the stocks. Then said Jeremiah unto him, The Lord hath not called thy name Pashur, but Magor-missabib. For thus saith the Lord, Behold, I will make thee a terror to thyself, and to all thy friends: and they shall fall by the sword of their enemies, and thine eyes shall behold it: and I will give all Judah into the hand of the king of Babylon, and he shall carry them captive into Babylon, and shall slay them with the sword. Moreover I will deliver all the strength of this city, and all the labours thereof, and all the precious things thereof, and all the treasures of the kings of Judah will I give into the hand of their enemies, which shall spoil them, and take them, and carry them to Babylon. And thou, Pashur, and all that dwell in thine house shall go into captivity: and thou shalt come to Babylon, and there thou shalt die, and shalt be buried there, thou, and all thy friends, to whom thou hast prophesied lies.

O Lord, thou hast deceived me,
and I was deceived:
thou art stronger than I,
and hast prevailed:
I am in derision daily,
every one mocketh me.
For since I spake, I cried out,
I cried violence and spoil;
because the word of the Lord
was made a reproach unto me,
and a derision, daily.
Then I said, I will not make mention of him,
nor speak any more in his name.
But his word was in mine heart
as a burning fire shut up in my bones,
and I was weary with forbearing,
and I could not stay.
10 For I heard the defaming of many,
fear on every side.
Report, say they, and we will report it.
All my familiars watched for my halting, saying,
Peradventure he will be enticed,
and we shall prevail against him,
and we shall take our revenge on him.
11 But the Lord is with me as a mighty terrible one:
therefore my persecutors shall stumble,
and they shall not prevail:
they shall be greatly ashamed;
for they shall not prosper:
their everlasting confusion shall never be forgotten.
12 But, O Lord of hosts, that triest the righteous,
and seest the reins and the heart,
let me see thy vengeance on them:
for unto thee have I opened my cause.
13 Sing unto the Lord, praise ye the Lord:
for he hath delivered the soul of the poor
from the hand of evildoers.

14 Cursed be the day wherein I was born:
let not the day wherein my mother bare me be blessed.
15 Cursed be the man who brought tidings to my father,
saying, A man child is born unto thee;
making him very glad.
16 And let that man be as the cities
which the Lord overthrew, and repented not:
and let him hear the cry in the morning,
and the shouting at noontide;
17 because he slew me not from the womb;
or that my mother might have been my grave,
and her womb to be always great with me.
18 Wherefore came I forth out of the womb
to see labour and sorrow,
that my days should be consumed with shame?

Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)KJV reproduced by permission of Cambridge University Press, the Crown’s patentee in the UK.

 The perps are really coming hard upon me.  The reason I deleted my old blog 2007-2011 is because I wrote a post about a “friend” that I had at the time and I had gotten back together with her.  I needn’t have bothered:  she has become an enemy.  I have not felt motivated to write posts since Neverending1 is not here anymore.  She is the only ti that seems to get it as bad as I do.  My work, my family, any friends, have all been taken from me.  Threats are constant and I think they have tried to kill me at least twice.  I will be a ti 28 years in the Fall.