Part 5 includes Psalm 115:17

This is dragging on longer than I thought, I guess this is why I put it off for so long. What will happen when I get to ps 119? I hope there aren’t too many underlined verses there!


Psalm 103:3, 9, 20, 22

3.  Who forgiveth all thine iniquities:  who healeth all thy diseases;

9.  He will not always chide;  neither will he keep his anger for ever.

20.  Bless ye the Lord, all ye his angels, that excel in strength, that do his commandments, hearkening unto the voice of his word.  21..Bless ye the Lord, all ye his hosts;  ye ministers of his, that do his pleasure.  22.  Bless the Lord, all his works in all places of his dominion:  bless the Lord, O my soul.

Psalm 104:5-9;  30

5.  Who laid the foundations of the earth, that is should not be removed for ever.  6.  Thou coveredst it with the deep as with a garment:  the waters stood above the mountains.  7.  At thy rebuke they fled;  at the voice of thy thunder they hasted away.  8.  They go up by the mountains;  they go down by the valleys unto the place which thou hast founded for them.  9.  Thou hast set a bound that they may not pass over, that they turn not again to cover the earth.

30.  Thou sendest forth thy spirit, they are created: and thou renewest the face of the earth.

Psalm 106:6

6.  We have sinned with our fathers, we have committed iniquity, we have done wickedly.

Psalm 107:16, 34, 43

16.  For he hath broken the gates of brass, and cut the bars of iron in sunder.

34.  A fruitful land into barrenness, for the wickedness of them that dwell therein.

43.  Whoso is wise and will observe these things, even they shall understand the lovingkindness of the Lord.

Psalm 109: 16-18  (ps, the perps HATE this whole Psalm and will clear out of your area if you play it or recite it.)

16.  Because, that he remembered not to show mercy, but persecuted the poor and needy man, that he might even slay the broken in heart.  17.  As he loved cursing, so let it come unto him:  as he delighted not in blessing, so let it be far from him.  18.  As he clothed himself with cursing like as with his garment, so let it come into his bowels like water, and like oil into his bones.

Psalm 110:3

3.  Thy people shall be willing in the day of thy power, in the beauties of holiness from the womb, of the morning:  thou hast the dew of thy youth.

Psalm 113:3

3.  From the rising of the sun onto the going down of the same the Lord’s name is to be praised.

Psalm 115:1-2;  12-17

1.  Not unto us, O Lord, not unto us, but onto thy name give glory, for thy mercy, and for thy truth’s sake.  2.  Wherefore should the heathen say, Where is now their God?

12.  The Lord hath been mindful of us:  he will bless us:  he will bless the house of Is’ra-el.  13.  He will bless them that fear the Lord, both small and great.  14.  The Lord shall increase you more and more, you and your children.  15.  Ye are blessed of the Lord which made heaven and earth.  16.  The heaven, even the heavens, are the Lord’s:  but the earth hath he given to the children of men.  17.  The dead praise not the Lord neither any that go down in silence.

Psalm 118:22

22.  The stone which the builders rejected is become the head stone of the corner.  (not EVER capstone).

Psalm 119:134 (you should read the whole Psalm 119.)

134.  Deliver me from the oppression of man:  so will I keep thy precepts.

Psalm 121:8 (this is a protection Psalm like 91)

8.  The Lord shall preserve thy going out and coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.

Psalm 124:7

7.  Our soul is escaped as a bird out of the snare of the fowlers:  the snare is broken, and we are escaped.

Psalm 125:5

5.  As for such as turn aside onto their crooked ways, the Lord shall lead them forth with the workers of iniquity:  but peace shall be upon Is’ra-el.

Psalm 127:3-4

3.  Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.  4.  As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man;  so are children of the youth.

Psalm 128:2

For thou shalt eat the labour of thine hands:  happy shalt thou be and it shall be well with thee.


1.  Many a time have they afflicted me from my youth, may Is’ra-el now say:   2.  Many a time have they afflicted me from my youth:  yet they have not prevailed against me.  3.  THE PLOWERS PLOWED UPON MY BACK:  THEY MADE LONG THEIR FURROWS.  (caps mine.)


6.  My soul waiteth for the Lord more than they that watch for the morning:  I say, more than they that watch for the morning.

Psalm 132:11

11.  The Lord hat sworn in truth unto Da’vid;  he will not turn from it, Of the fruit of thy body will I set upon thy throne.

Psalm 133;3

3.  As the dew of Hermon and as the dew that descended upon the mountains of Zion:  for there the Lord commanded the blessing, even life for evermore.

Psalm 138:7-8

7.  Though I walk in the midst of trouble, thou wilt revive me:  thou shalt stretch forth thine hand against the wrath of mine enemies, and the right hand shall save me.  8.  The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me:  they mercy, O Lord, endureth for ever:  forsake not the works of thine own hands.

Psalm 139:14-16; 20-21

14.  I will praise thee:  for I am fearfully and wonderfully made:  marevellous are thy works;  and that my soul knoweth right well.  15.  My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.  16.  Thine eyes did see my substance , yet being unperfect;  and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

20.  For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.  21. Do I not hate them, O Lord, that hate thee?  and am I not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?

Psalm 140:1-4

1.  Deliver me, O Lord, from the evil man:  preserve me from the violent man;  2.  Which imagine mischiefs in the heart:  continually are they gathered together for war.  3.  They have sharpened their tongues like a serpent;  adders poison is under their lips.  Se’lah.  4.  Keep me, O Lord, from the hands of the wicked;  preserve me from the violent man;  who have purposed to overthrow my goings.

Psalm 141:7-10

7.  Our bones, are scattered at the grave’s mouth, as when one cutteth and cleaveth wood upon the earth.  8.  But mine eyes are unto thee, O God the Lord:  in thee is my trust;  leave not my soul destitute.  9.  Keep me from the snares which they have laid for me, and the gins of the workers or iniquity.  10.  Let the wicked fall into their own nets, whilst that I withal escape.

Psalm 142:3-7

3.  When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then thou knewest my path.  In the way wherein I walked have they privily laid a snare for me.  4.  I looked on my right hand and beheld, but there was no man that would know me:  refuge failed me;  no man cared for my soul.  5.  I cried onto thee, O Lord; I said Thou are my refuge and my portion in the land of the living.  6.  Attend onto my cry;  for I am brought very low:  deliver me from my persecutors;  for they are stronger than I.  7.  Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise thy name:  the righteous shall compass me about;  for thou shalt deal bountifully with me.

Psalm 143:7

7.  Hear me speedily O Lord:  my spirit faileth:  hide not thy face from me, lest I be like unto them that go down into the pit.

Psalm 144:6-7, 11

6.  Cast forth lightning and scatter them:  shoot out thine arrows, and destroy them.  7.  Send thine hand from above;  rid me, and deliver me out of great waters, from the hand of STRANGE CHILDREN.  (caps mine).

11.  Rid me and deliver me from the hand of STRANGE CHILDREN whose mouth speaketh vanity, and their right hand is a right hand of falsehood.

Psalm 149:4-6

4.  For the Lord taketh pleasure in his people:  he will beautify the meek with salvation.  5.  Let the saints be joyful in glory:  let them sing aloud upon their beds.  6.  Let the high praises of God be in their mouth, and a two-edged sword in their hand.

This is all I’ve underlined but there is a lot more, of course, in the Psalms and the whole Bible.

Part 4

Verses from the Psalms for the edification of ti’s and shame of perps.

Psalm 79:11-12

11.  Let the sighing of the prisoner come before thee;  according to the greatness of thy power preserve thou those that are appointed to die.  12.  And render unto our neighbors sevenfold into their bosom their reproach, wherewith they have reproached thee, O Lord.

Psalm 80:3-7: 14-19

3.  Turn us again, O God, and cause thy face to shine;  and we shall be saved.  4.  O Lord God of hosts, how long wilt thou be angry against the prayer of the people?  5.  Thou feedest them with the bread of tears;  and givest them tears to drink in great measure.  6.  Thou makest us a strife unto our neighbors:  and our enemies laugh among themselves.  7.  Turn us again, O God of hosts, and cause thy face to shine;  and we shall be saved.

14.  Return, we beseech thee O God of hosts:  look down from heaven, and behold;  and visit this vine;  15.  And the vineyard which thy right hand hath planted, and the branch that thou madest strong for thyself.  16.  It is burned with fire, it is cut down;  they perish at the rebuke of thy countenance.  17.  Let thy hand be upon the man of thy right hand upon the son of man whom thou madest strong for thyself.  18.  So will not we go back from thee:  quicken us,  and we will call upon thy name.  19.  Turn us again, O Lord God of hosts, cause thy face to shine;  and we shall be saved.

Psalm 81: 9-13

9.  There shall no strange God be in thee;  neither shalt thou worship any strange God.  10.  I am the Lord thy God, which brought thee out of the and of Egypt:  open thy mouth wide and I will fill it.  11.  But my people would not hearken to my voice;  and Is’rael would none of me.  12.  So I gave them up to onto their own hearts’ lust and they walked in their own counsels.  13.  Oh that my people had hearkened onto me, and Is’ra-el had walked in my ways!  14.  I should have soon subdued their enemies, and turned my hand against their adversaries.

Psalm 82:2, 5

2.  How long will ye judge unjustly and accept the persons of the wicked?  Se’lah.  5.  They know not, neither will they understand, they walk on in darkness:  all the foundations of the earth are out of course.

Psalm 83:4, 16

4.  They have said, Come and let us cut them off from being a nation;  that the name of Is’ra-el may be no more in remembrance.

16.  Fill their faces with shame;  that they may seek thy name, O Lord.

Psalm 84:10-11

10.  For a day in thy courts is better than a thousand.  I had rather be a doorkeeper in the house of the God, than to dwell in the tents of wickedness.  11.  For the Lord God is a sun and shield:  the Lord will give grace and glory:  no good thing will he withhold from them who walk uprightly.

Psalm 88-it describes our lives but is so depressing.  It actually describes my life quite well.

Psalm 89:31-34

31.  If they break my statutes, and keep not my commandments:  32.  Then will I visit their transgression with the rod, and their iniquity with stripes,  33.  Nevertheless, my lovingkindness will I not utterly take from him nor suffer my my faithfulness to fail.  34.  My covenant will I not break, nor alter the thing that is gone out of my lips.

Psalm 90:4

4.  For a thousand years in my sight are but as yesterday when it is past, and as a watch in the night.

Psalm 91–all of it

1.  He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.  2.  I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress:  my God;  in him will I trust.  3.  Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.  4.  He shall cover thee with his feathers and under his wings shalt thou trust:  his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.  5.  Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night, nor for the arrow that flieth by day;  6.  Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness;  nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.  7.  A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand;  but is shall not come nigh thee.  8.  Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.  9.  Because thou hast make the Lord, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation.  10.  There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.  11.  For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.  12.  They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.  13.  Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder, the young lion and dragon shalt thou trample under feet.  14.  Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him:  I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.  15.  He shall call upon me and I will answer him:  I will be with him in trouble;  I will deliver him and honour him.  16.  With long life will I satisfy him and shew him my salvation.

Psalm 94:16-17

16.  Who will rise up for me against the evildoers?  or who will  stand up for me against the workers of iniquity?  17.  Unless the Lord had been my help, my soul had almost dwelt in silence.

Psalm 97:7

Confounded be all they that serve graven images, that boast themselves of idols:  worship him, all ye gods.

Psalm 98 1-4

1.  O sing onto the Lord a new song for he hath done marvelous things:  his right hand and his holy arm, hath gotten him the victory.  2.  The Lord hath made known his salvation;  his righteousness hath he openly shewed in the sight of the heathen.  3.  He hath remembered his mercy and truth towards the house of Is’ra-el:  all the ends of the earth have seen the salvation of our God.  4.  Make a joyful noise onto the Lord, all the earth, make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise.

Psalm 100:3

3.  Know ye that the Lord he is God;  it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves:  we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.

Psalm 101:5

5.  Whoso privily slandereth his neighbor, him will I cut off:  him that hath an high look and a proud heart will I not suffer.

Psalm 102:2, 8

2.  Hide not thy face from me in the day when I am in trouble;  incline thine ear onto me:  in the day when I call answer me speedily.

8.  Mine enemies reproach me all the day;  and they that are made against me are sworn against me.

26.  They shall perish, but thou shalt endure, yea, all of them shall wax old like a garment;  as a vesture shalt thou change them, and they shall be changed.

The rest of 102 is great, too.

More to come

Psalmorama 3

Here is the third installment of verses from Psalms having to do with ti’s/perps.

Psalm 58:9-10

9.  Before your pots can feel the thorns, he shall take them away with a whirlwind, both living, and in his wrath.  10.  The righteous shall rejoice when he seeth the vengance:  he shall wash his feet in the blood of the wicked.

Psalm 59:7-13

7.  Behold, they belch out with their mouth:  swords are in their lips:  for who, say they, doth hear?  8.  But thou, O Lord, shalt laugh at them;  thou shalt have all the heathen in derision.  11.  Slay them not, lest my people forget:  scatter them by thy power, and bring them down, O Lord our shield.  12.  For the sin of their mouth and the words of their lips let them even be taken in their pride:  and for cursing and lying which they speak.  13.  Consume them in wrath, consume them, that they may not be;  and let them know that God ruleth in Jacob unto the ends of the earth.  Se’lah.

Psalm 62:8

Trust in him at all times;  ye people, pour out your heart before him:  God is a refuge for us.  Se’lah.

Psalm 63:1

1.  O God, thou art my God;  early will I seek thee:  my soul thirsteth for thee,  my flesh longeth for thee in a dry and thirsty land, where no water is;

Psalm 64:6-8

6.  They search out iniquities;  they accomplish a diligent search:  both the inward thought of every one of them, and the heart, is deep.  7.  But God shall shoot at them with an arrow;  suddenly shall they be wounded.  8.  So they shall make their own tongue to fall upon themselves:  all that see them shall flee away.  (ESPECIALLY THIS ONE).

Psalm 66:10-12

10.  For thou, O God, hast proved us:  thou hast tried us, as silver is tried.  11.  Thou broughtest us into the net;  thou laist afflictions upon our loins.  12.  Thou has caused men to ride over our heads;  we went through fire and through water:  but thou broughtest us out into a wealthy place.

Psalm 68:4,6, 35

4.  Sing onto God, sing praises to his name:  extol him that rideth upon the heavens by his name JAH and rejoice before him.

6.  God setteth the solitary in families;  he bringeth out those which are bound with chains;  but the rebellious dwell in a dry land.

35.  O God thou art terrible out of thy holy places:  the God of Is’ra-el is he that giveth strength and power onto his people.  Blessed be God.

Psalm 69:14, 20, 26 (all of the Psalm)

14.  Deliver me out of the mire, and let me not sink:  let me be delivered from them that hate me, and out of the deep waters.

20.  Reproach hath broken my heart and I am full of heaviness:  and looked for some to take pity, but there was none;  and for comforters, and I found none.

26.  For they persecute him whom thou hast smitten;  and they talk to the grief of those whom thou hast wounded.

Psalm 72:12

12.  For he shall deliver the needy when he crieth;  the poor also, and him that hath no helper.

Psalm 73:27

27.  For lo, they that are far from thee shall perish:  thou hast destroyed all them that go a whoring from thee.

Psalm 74:1, 19

1.  O God, why hast thou cast us off for ever?  why doth thine anger smoke against the sheep of thy pasture?

19.  O deliver not the soul of thy turtledove unto the multitude of the wicked:  forget not the congregation of thy poor for ever.

Psalm 77:1-9

1.  I cried onto God with my voice, even onto God with my voice, and he gave ear unto me.  2.  In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord:  my sore ran into the night, and ceased not, my soul refused to be comforted.  3.  I remembered God and was troubled:  I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed.  Se’lah.  4.  Thou holdest mine eyes waking:  I am so troubled that I cannot speak.  5.  I have considered the days of old, the years of ancient times.  6.  I call to remembrance my song in the night:  I commune with mine own heart:  and my spirit made diligent search.  7.  Will the Lord cast off for ever?  and will he be favorable no more?  8.  Is his mercy clean gone for ever?  doth his promise fail for evermore?  9.  Hath God forgotten to be gracious?  hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies?  Se’lah.

More to come

Psalmorama Part II

Psalm 40:14-15

14.  Let them be ashamed and confounded together that seek after my soul to destroy it;  let them be driven backward and put to shame that wish me evil.  15.  Let them be desolate for a reward of their shame that say onto me, Aha, aha.

Psalm 41:9

Yea, mine own familiar friend in whom I trusted, which did eat of my bread, hath lifted up his heel against me.

Psalm 42:3,9-10

3.  My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say onto me, “Where is thy God?”.  9.  I will say onto God my rock,  “Why hast thou forgotten me?  why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?”  10.  As with a sword in my bones my enemies reproach me;  while they daily onto me, “Where is thy God?”

Psalm 44:12-161

Thou sellest thy people for nought, and does not increase thy wealth by their price.  13.  Thou makest us a reproach to our neighbors and a scorn and a derision to them that are round about us.  14.  Thou makest us a byword among the heathen, a shaking of the head among the people.  15.  My confusion is continually before me, and the shame of my face hath covered me.  16.  For the voice of him that reproacheth and blasphemeth by reason of the enemy and avenger.

Psalm 45: 2,7

2. Thou art fairer than the children of men:  grace is poured into thy lips:  Therefore God hath blessed the for ever.  7.Thou lovest righteousness and hatest wickedness:  therefore God,  thy God, hath annointed thee with the oil of gladness above thy fellows.

Psalm 50:16-23

But onto the wicked God saith, What hast thou to do to decalre my statutes or that thou shouldest take my covenant in thy mouth?  17.  Seeing thou hatest instruction and castest my words behind thee.  18.  When thou sawest a thief, then thou consentedst with him, and hast been partaker with adulterers.  19.  Thou givest thy mouth to evil and thy tongue frameth deciet.  20.  Thou sittest and speakest against thy brother thou slanderest thine own mother’s son.  21.  These things hast thou done and I kept silence;  thou thoughtest that I was altogether such as one as thyself;  but I will reprove thee, and set them in order before thine eyes.  22.  Now consider this, ye that forget God, lest I tear you in pieces and there be none to deliver.  23.  Whoso offereth praise glorifieth me:  and to him that ordereth his conversation aright will I shew the salvation of God.

Psalm 51:9-13 (whole one is best)

9.  Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.  10.  Create in me a clean heart O God;  and renew a right spirit within me.  11.  Cast me not away from thy presence and take not thy holy spirit from me.  12.  Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation;  and uphold me with thy free spirit.  13.  Then will I teach transgressors thy ways;  and sinners shall be converted onto thee.

Psalm 52:7-8,9

7.  Lo, this is the man that made not God his strength;  but trusted in the abundance of his riches and strengthened himself in his wickedness.  8.  But I am like a green olive tree in the house of God:  I trust in the mercy of God for ever and ever.  9.  I will praise thee for ever, because thou hast done it:  and I will wait on thy name;  for it is good before thy saints.

Psalm 55;3

Because of the voice of the enemy, because of the oppression of the wicked;  for they cast iniquity upon me, and in wrath hate me.

Psalm 56:6

They gather themselves together, they hide themselves, they mark my steps, when they wait for my soul.

More later

A psalmorama for perps

Somebody wanted this, so here it is.  Psalms to say to/against perps.  Or Psalms to say about perps. All of the Psalms are good but I’ve personally chosen these Psalms as ones that really talk back to perps.  Some of these Psalms are called Imprecatory Psalms, imprecatory meaning to curse or bring evil upon.  Now, Christians are not supposed to send curses but the Bible is full of them.  Perhaps King David in these Psalms hoped his enemies would repent and go straight with God by reading these scary prayers.  Maybe not.  Jesus Himself cursed the Pharisees hoping they would come to themselves and repent.  I’m not sure if I’m allowed to post entire Psalms.  Both King James Bibles are copyrighted at a much later date but essentially contain a King James Bible along with connecting verses,maps, mini dictionary, etc.  It might be TMI to post my specific Bibles as they sit out for everyone to see.  The King James Version was first published in 1611 but underwent several revisions to modernize it a bit but never became a new VERSION of the Bible until someone published the New King James Version in the 20th century.

As an aside, I do believe that the perps are involved in the occult and DO regularly curse us and for us to use the Bible’s imprecatory verses is one way of fighting against spiritual attack.  I have procrastinated doing this for months and am sorry.

Psalm 12:2

“They speak vanity every one with his neighbor;  with flattering lips and with a double heart do they speak.  3.  The Lord shall cut off all flattering lips, and the tongue that speaketh proud things.

Psalm 15:3

He that backbitheth not with his tongue nor doeth evil to his neighbor, nor taketh up a reproach against his neighbor, 4.  In whose eyes a vile person is contemned;  but he honoreth then that fear the Lord.  He that sweareth to his own hurt and changeth not.

Psalm 21;9

Thou shalt make them as  a fiery oven in the time of thine anger;  the Lord shall swallow them up in his wrath, and the fire shall devour them.

Psalm 22:6-12  (really all of it)

But I am a worm and no man;  a reproach of men, and despised of the people.  7.  All that see me laugh me to scorn;  they shoot out the lip, they shake the head saying, 8.  He trusted on the Lord that he would deliver him:  let him deliver him, seeing he delighted in him.  9.  But thou art he that took me out of the womb:  thou didst make me hope when I was on my mother’s breasts.  10.  I was cast upon thee from the womb:  thou art my God from my mother’s belly.  11.  Be not far from me:  for trouble is near;  there is none to help.  12.  Many bulls have compassed me:  strong bulls of Bashan have beset me around.

Psalm 22 prophecies Jesus’ sufferings

Don’t forget Psalm 23.

Psalm 25: 6-7

6.  Remember, O Lord, thy tender mercies and thy lovingkindnesses;  for they have been of old.  7.  Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions:  according to thy mercy remember thou me for thy goodness’ sake, O Lord.

Psalm 27:9, 12-14

9.  Hide not thy face far from me;  put not thy servant away in anger:  thou hast been my help;  leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.  12.  Deliver me not onto the will of mine enemies for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.  13.  I had fainted unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.  14.  Wait on the Lord:  be of good courage and he shall strengthen thine heart:  wait, I say, on the Lord.

Psalm 28:1, 3-4

1. Unto thee will I cry, O Lord my rock;  be not silent to me:  lest if thou be silent to me, I become like them that go down into the pit.  3.  Draw me not away with the wicked and with the workers of iniquity, which speak peace to their neighbours, but mischief in their heart.  4.  Give them according to the wickedness of their endeavors:  give them after the work of their hands, render to them their desert.

Psalm 31:11-13

11.  I was a reproach among all mine enemies, but especially among my neighbors, and a fear to mine acquaintance:  they that did see me without fled from me.  12.  I am forgotten as a dead man out of mind:  I am like a broken vessel.  13.  For I have heard the slander of many:  fear was on every side:  while they took counsel together against me, they devised to take away my life.

Psalm 32:6

For this shall every one that is godly pray unto thee in a time when thou mayest  be found:  surely in the floods of great waters they shall not come nigh onto him.

Psalm 35:7, 15, 19

7.  For without cause have they hid for me their net in a pit, which without cause they have DIGGED FOR MY SOUL. (caps mine).  15.  But in mine adversity they rejoiced, and gathered themselves together:  yea, the abjects gathered themselves together against me and I knew it not;  they did tear me, and ceased not. (behavior of perps)  19.  Let not them that are mine enemies wrongfully rejoice over me:  neither let them wink with the eye that hate me without a cause.

Psalm 37: 1-10, 14, 24, 27-8, 33, 35, 40. (really all of it)

1.  Fret not thyself because of evildoers neither be thou envious against the workers or iniquity.  2.  For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb.  3.  Trust in the Lord, and do good;  so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.  4.  Delight thyself also in the Lord;  and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.  5.  Commit thy way onto the Lord;  trust also in him and he shall bring it to pass.  6.  And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgement as the noonday.  7.  Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him;  fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.  8.  Cease from anger, and forsake wrath:  fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.  9.  For evildoers shall be cut off:  but those that wait upon the Lord, they shall inherit the earth.  10.  For yet a little while, and the wicked shall not be:  yea, thou shalt diligently consider his place, and it shall not be.

14.  The wicked have drawn out the sword, and have bent their bow, to cast down the poor and needy, and to stay such as be of upright conversation.

24.  Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down:  for the Lord upholdeth him with his hand.

27.  Depart from evil and do good;  and dwell forevermore.  28. For the Lord loveth judgement , and forsaketh not his saints;  they are preserved for ever;  but the seed of the wicked shall be cut off.

33.  The Lord will not leave him in his hand, nor condemn him when he is judged.

35.  I have seen the wicked in great power, and spreading himself like a green bay tree.

40.  And the Lord shall help them and deliver them:  he shall deliver them from the wicked,  and save them, because they trust in him.

Psalm 38: 12,19

12.  They also seek after my life lay snares for me and they that seek my hurt speak mischievous things and imagine deceits all the day long.

19.  But mine enemies are lively, and they are strong:  and they that hate me wrongfully are multiplied.

More to come…..

Old, Female and Homeless

Please read the whole article. One thing that is sort of wrong with the article is that it portrays elderly homeless women as something new. I remember hearing about “bag ladies” even as a child. The city was also full of ratty nasty Single Room Occupancy hotels that all closed down to create other structures and housing. I think there are maybe 3 left in town and some motels on the outskirts of town. I even stayed in one once when I had an argument with the parents in college. Horrible. With the way things are going around here I bet I’m gonna be a bag lady before long. Women of a “certain age” become expendable if not married and/or working.

Old Post Waiting Until I got online again….

August 10, 2014

My ‘puter is broke.  :(.  I have to neglect my blog and writing projects.  (probably by design the perps killed the computer to keep me from participating in Writing U).  I am reading the Bible Al Fresco w/o Commentary except yesterday when I caught up a bit on someone else’s computer.

Perps as bad as ever.  Now I’m getting race-baiting as well as the rest of it.  I suspect my Landlady is coming in when I’m not here.  Two men goose stepped up the aisle when I went shopping yesterday.  I “outed” them as perps. and they just mumbled “f-you” and left.  Fako cop skit @ restaurant as I ate very late last night.  Cops sort of being called on a man but he’s NOT arrested but given a cab ride home just like the little skit right in front of the apartment with my neighbor.  Cops cuffed him then let him go to the dry out center.  Ahhhh showbiz.  Cops showing people “getting away” with things in front of me to show me they get lenient treatment if they are perps.  I remember the bitch with the syringe stuck in her hand and the man who pulled the knife on me.  Then there was the woman (who looks familiar) who told a perp newbie that they were “doing it for America” as they walked by.  Bunch of sick stupid cowards.  That was after the newbie threatened my cat.  Then there was the couple that tried to live behind the dumpster across from my window until they were hauled off by cops when I was GONE OF COURSE.  Mr. Smartypants living behind the dumpster told me he was getting a thousand to sleep behind the dumpster and spy on me.  Money has been tight since I decided I wanted a corset.  I have been short every month.  I am already almost out of money and I have to pay for computer services I”m NOT using.  I don’t want to cut them off since if get a new computer who would take me?  No magic miracle this time re: the computer.  Why do I hang on?  What for?  I do not know what would happen to the cat if I was not here.  She is not young anymore and might not be adopted.

Till the Bitter End

Till the Bitter End

I don’t know how it happened by It got ahold of me again.  Here I am in a dirty house-dress shuffling along on raggedy slippers in a haze.  I must have drunk myself to sleep again.   Been too good for too long.  I went to four fuckin AA meetings a week, and, if that wasn’t enough I volunteered at the lousy gift shop at the Hospital and then got hired after Tom retired with almost no pension.  I was so so goody goody.  I was the Earth Mother Old lady around here baking cookies driving brats around, doing anything to regain my “good name”  Ha ha.

Old man Goldberg let me go after 5 good years working at his shop.  Never took a drop.  Had not had a drop since 1950.  Some young floozy probably in his pants and I know who…that was the beginning of the end along with all the crap at church.

Who is knocking?  It’s only 8:00 in the morning.  Didn’t I get rid of the Jehovah’s Witnesses last time and made it stick?  No one has been by here for months.  I have to go over this obstacle course to get to the door.  I don’t know what happened to the cleaning…I kept a good house for Tom.

OOOh lookee now!  It’s that sleazy bum, the landlord after the rent.  I TOLD him he would get it when I sold my old jewelry…I can’t seem to get around to it.  The store and liquor store are the only places I go.  He’s with the Sheriff!  Oh shit I’m a bag lady.  His pop was nicer and patient with us cause we were good folks but this guy is a snake in a suit.  I even did not like him as a kid.  There was bad in his eyes.

The light in here is hazy and I hear nothing but machines and clicking heels on the floor.  I am dying.  I am here in the State Home for the Elderly.  I think I just had a dream.  My God, that was only a few months ago!  June???  What month is it now?  What can you do to get a drink around here?

I’m dying, only 70 years old, and nothing to show for myself.  Tom could never make a buck.  He kept a roof over our head and kept my 6 kids fed but not much more.  Tom kept promising  he was going to buy a house.  Never happened.  The same stuff is in the house that was there back in the mid ’20s when we moved in “for just a little while”.  Fifty years later and I’m kicked out like a bum…what happened to all those phoney little Christians I used to hang around with so much after I started AA?  I was always at the Church, on committees, baking stuff, taking phone calls from distraught members.  I had almost a full time job on top of the Gift Shop there.  No one wanted me.  It always ends this way.  Since I was born…….

No one will listen to me now.  I have a tube down my throat.  Who will ever know my story?  Tom is gone, my kids and grand-kids estranged from me, my friends gone, even my AA Sponsor gave up on me.  Even those neighbors that felt sorry for me on the way down are gone.  The goody goods 3 houses down left me here what? 2 months ago?  More?

Will you listen to me?

I was born in a nasty tiny apartment in Detroit in 1907.  I can’t believe it’s 1977.  I was born at home, tended by a woman in our building who was sort of an unofficial midwife.  Guess I was OK or I would have died.  My dad drank until he died when I was 12 then Mother’s condition forced me to work.  She was pretty much useless at that time anyway.  It was 1919.  I ended up taking in laundry and washing it in the apartments basement where there was a tub and washing board.  I would also heat up a huge kettle outside to do the bleaching.  There was a huge clothesline in the yard where I hung ’em and then took ’em in to iron.  I was paid almost nothing.  It lasted 3 years.  Then I got a real job.

Mom was useless lying in bed most days only getting up every week or so when whatever lived in her head let her.  I worked in a department store in the young miss department stocking the racks, doing inventory and price tagging new items.  I also packaged items for gifts and comforted little skinny bitches who were “too fat” for the dressing room mirrors.  After I came home I had to cook and clean up a bit.  Mother would call from her room to bring her things late into the night.  Then I crashed into bed to do it all over again.

The door knocks again.   There he is, Baxter Pappas the worst landlord in the world.  His mouth is twisted into a sneer as he waits for me to open the door.  I look out the window beside the door and see the sheriff waiting.  They are coming to make me a bag lady.

“Can I help you?”

“Mrs. Pauley, either you pay up now, 600.00 or you will have to leave.

“I don’t have it.  My whole check is 500.00 dollas.”

“I am getting your filthy ass out of here and am going to rent this place for 300.00 when it’s cleaned up.”

“I won’t leave.  I have nowhere to go.” my voice rising.

“If you don’t leave, you will go to jail, you ugly pig.”

I start crying.  I want to hit him but I’m sure the little piece of shit would enjoy the show and put extra charges on me.”

“My cat needs me here.”

“Your fuckin’ cat can go get toasted at the pound!”

“You are the spawn of the devil, Pappas!”  I start to cry.

The neighbors down the street and other neighbors are watching.  Mr. Smith seems to be coming over.  I”m looking a wreck.  I have not had a shower for a week or changed clothes.  Been using the drive thru liquor store.  Mr. Smith is calling my name:

“Trina Trina, you can come to our house while this blows over.”

“No!”  I’m too proud to leave my home of 50 years.  No good lazy Tom always needed to work harder…

“I will call Lance, he has loaned me for rent once this year.  Let me call Lance.”

“Now old woman Pauley,” Pappas taunted, reeking of cheap aftershave.

“Please come with us, we can help you while this blows over,” said Mr. Smith.

I start to sob and sob.  I feel a strong arm around me leading me down the block.  My skinny feet in slippers feeling every step.  I can’t stop crying.  Is this all I get after working since I was 12?  To be kicked out like some bum?  I feel myself go up some steps and sat at a kitchen table.  I can’t stop crying even though Mrs. Smith is looking at me and their youngest son, Mark, is there.

My back aches.  Why don’t the fuckin’ nurses move me?  I hear one of them talking far away.  I try to move but I cannot.  The voice sounds like it’s at the end of tunnel.  Sounds like she is calling the Smiths.  Curtains for me.  Is Lance gonna throw me in the river?  Will my other kids at least see to get me a stone near Tom?

Well, whoever you are, I better tell the rest of this.  I never had many friends.  No one liked me in school and I was only to happy to leave at 12.  The other women in the neighborhood taunted me back when I started taking in laundry.  They’d hang around with each other smokin’ and drinkin’ coffee and eatin’ cake and I never ever got invited.  I would cry myself to sleep.  The ladies were too old for me anyway.  Sometimes I would not sleep.  Too tired, too anxious, I guess.

One night late my mother of all people knocks on the door of my tiny bedroom.  In a rare show of “Mom” she asks me what’s wrong.  I just want to push the lazy pig outta my room but I would talk to anyone.  Even her.  I told her my problems.  She seemed to listen for once.  She told me those old whores did not like her either and never invited her either.

“So you put it on me??” I wailed.

“Your Fatha did, you know that,”

“Guess so,”  the police had been here many times when Dad hit Mom and the wagon had picked him up to take him the drunk tank when he went on a bender.

“We are different,”

“We are just trash to them,”

“My hands ache from all the detergent and my back aches and my feet aches and all the girls I went to school with are going to parties and dating,”

“Maybe you could try for a nicer job and maybe meet a boyfriend,”

“Yeah sure, Mom, people take a look at me and wanna throw up.”

“You are beautiful Trina!” Mother said sounding hurt.

I looked in the old mirror on my drawers and saw a thin tired 14 year old with bright red hair, freckles and a pout.  My nose wasn’t so bad but boys don’t go out with noses.  I was flat as a pancake and hadn’t had my cycle.  I was a freak.

“I can’t sleep,”

“Why don’t you come to bed with me?’

It sounded so nice but her room smelled of sweat, medicine and cheap perfume.

“No, it’s OK, Mom”

“Well let me bring you something.”  She was gone for a few minutes.

She came back with a bottle of sweet wine and a glass.

“No no no!”  I screamed.

“Just this time?  You will collapse and get ill if you don’t get sleep.”

” No!”

“I will just leave it here,” she said and padded out the room.

I lay back down and tossed and turned.  Looked at the clock.  3:30am.  I got up at 6:00 everyday except Sunday to start.  I had nothing to read since I didn’t go to school no more and had very little time for the library which was a long walk away.  Just this once.  I took the bottle and opened it and uncorked it (Dad made me do it all the time) and put some wine in the glass.  I gulped it down.  A warm cozy feeling came over me like I was at grandma’s house again a long time ago before she died.  I took another and hugged the pillow and slept.

I smell all kinds of things here and I can’t complain.  They tranquilized me and tied me up like a vicious animal since I came here.  No one cared about me.  No one even tried to talk to me but the phoney Christian roommate I had at first.  I never said a word.  I knew the gig was up when the Smiths caught me drunk in their backyard.  The End. Finis.  Now I’m tied to tubes like a science experiment.

I overslept the first day but I was forgiven by my mother and the customers.  It seemed I broke the ice somehow.  I was occasionally invited to afternoon “coffee” after my laundry was done and hanging.  The “coffees” were usually gossip-fests that featured coffee laced with whiskey, some kind of sweet and cigarettes.  I started smoking too, at that time.  We laughed and joked and gossiped and even went shopping at times although most of us were housewives or like me the poor orphan laundress.  My new “friends” were 2 to 3 times or more older than me but they were all I had.  For the first and almost the last time in my life I felt I belonged.

Once, when we were shopping we decided to go “uptown” to the department store to see what the “other half” got to wear when I noticed there was a sign “Now Hiring” no experience needed.  Will train.  See Mrs. Simmons upstairs.  I decided what the hell, it was worth a try.  When I was hired a week later I had to give my laundry business to one of our “crowd” who was having ends meet with a large family and useless husband.  That is typical on this side of town.  I kept only a few customers of my own “just in case” I got fired.  I was making more money and was able to afford a few things for Mom and I.  She seemed a bit less depressed and would even go out with me on Friday Night for a meal after the workweek was done and I wasn’t scheduled for Saturday.  Old friends would come up to her that hadn’t seen her in ages and we got invited to dinner here and there and even got invites for holidays.  All of a sudden I was seventeen, getting pretty, making OK money and having a relationship with my mother.  Those were the good times.  The best ever.  Nothing good lasts in my life though.

To be continued….