After 5 1/2 years I completed college and realized I had really learnt nothing. I had a few facts about history and had read some stuff from England but really knew nothing that would get me a job in the real world unless I went to graduate school.It was a Liberal Arts waste. I had no energy to start that as the gangstalking was already wearing me out plus my parents were putting pressure on to find a job–any job–thereby denying me time to look for one I was qualified for. I took the Civil Service exam and did not too well. I applied with the State and the City too. Nothing. I applied all over town and ended up “temping” and getting abused by the customers and temp agency. I started to attend classes to train for a trade and sometimes I would get a job for a year or two and that would be it. I tried to take the GRE to get into graduate school and did well, but not good enough. I tried only once to get into graduate school and failed. My life was already too stressful at the time dealing with gangstalking, poverty and chronic illness. After that, I trained to be a line cook, got a job that lasted the requisite 2 years then nothing. At the same time I slaved night shift at McDonalds and on weekends or gave out hot dogs at the ballpark After the one cook position I got, I temped, and even though I cooked before, all I could get was dishwashing or banquet server jobs. I even tried to drive a school bus but lost my job to a big fat bully in the lunchroom of the bus service. I even worked at my old school as a temp cashier at the bookstore. My last unsheltered job was a second “sentence” at McDonalds until one day I went in and was fired without warning. I was getting abused by the customers all the time anyway. I did not know the customers were perping me and enjoying themselves at my expense. I thought I must suck, my work must suck, I must be nuts…etc. After trying to get on at another McDonalds I finally quit the job world and applied for benefits. I had a few sheltered jobs after that made miserable by perps but that’s it. Even volunteer work does not pan out. The perps have destroyed any way I could make a living.
School was a waste in that I should have been working and enjoying myself in those last few years before targetting. I had no idea this would be my life although hints were placed as far back as preschool.