I Am a Mess

Does a messy home (or office) make you anxious and cranky, or is cleaning something you just do before company comes over?

I don’t know why I never picked up the cleaning habit but I do not clean unless I have to. I think it has something to do with my depression and the fear messages the perps leave in my head about not living too well. I keep telling myself I will get into the habit of cleaning weekly but for whom? If more people came over and my apartment became a place to hang out at and sleep at I might be more inspired to clean it more.

I scoop the litter, wash the dishes when they run out and vacuum when the carpet disappears. I sometimes do “bathroom duty” by scouring the tub, etc. Bottom line is: if the perp o traitors are coming in here and peeping at my stuff why do I want to clean the apartment for them? It makes it easier for them to be in here knowing they won’t have to face a mess every time. If I had privacy maybe I’d make my home a place of cleanliness and order.

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2 thoughts on “I Am a Mess

  1. I thought that same thing last weekend (why should I clean up for the perps). I can tell what they been in when its unorganized at home sometimes. We have alot in common dcms

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    • They have to trudge thru all kinds of stuff if they want to “find” something. One day I’ll get organized. Don’t want the little shits to have to work too hard..awww

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